Lockdown Ramadhan Diaries #2: Of Kangkung and Kale

*flashback first post* I plan to write ALLL 30 days of Ramadhan because I can.

CHOIIII.

Hahahaha eh dah hari keempat biar betik weh. Bulan ni laju kemain. Bulan 1 dengan bulan 3 haritu rasa stretchhhhh semacam. And the funny thing is these sentiments are shared by people across the world. I wonder why. I think cos... adjustment. Adjustment makes time stretch. And adaptation makes it go woosh. We were adjusting to the new year in Jan, and then in March we were adjusting to the RMO. *shrugs*

Harini nak tulis pasal apa eh. Sebenarnya dua tiga hari ni aku banyak idea nak tulis. Nak tulis pasal jenis-jenis daun la, (sebab semalam aku salah beli sayur) HAHAHAHA masalahnya sayur yang sangat... common yer omg aku malu nak cakap but but... 

Aku terbeli kangkung. Padahal mak aku suruh beli sawi. Ok dekat tempat sayur tu aku cek label ok, SAWI. SAWI. Sape letak kangkung dekat tempat sawi??? Hello??? Ni mesti kerja customer. Memula masa aku amik tu aku tak berapa nak syak pape la en. Tapi masa aku bawak sayur tu gi dekat kereta en. Eh. Nape makin lama aku tenung sawi ni makin dia nampak cam kangkung. Tapi aku in denial lagi waktu tu. Nak dekat2 sampai rumah baru pale otak aku cam syit syit syit it's frikkin kangkung. Habis kene basuh dengan mak aku balik ni.

End up memang kena bebel la lama jugak mak aku bebel sebab bagi dia ni kesilapan yang takleh diterima huaaaaaa.

Whatevr. Still salah orang yang letak kangkung kat tempat sawi.

P/s: oh ayat mak aku cmni, 'kalau tertukar bayam dengan kangkung tahan lagi, ni sawi and kangkung!!!' k bye I taktau la benda2 ni, I makan kale jk i've never seen kale, I have no idea what it looks like, and I'm not interested.

Lockdown Ramadhan Diaries #1: Proud

I aim to write alllll 30 days of Ramadhan. Because I want to. And because I’m at home. Because it’s the oddest, most interesting Ramadhan ever. All locked up.

Day 1 berjaya Alhamdulillah! What is time T__T I tak kahwin lagiiii *panik2*

It’s 3.18am so I’m not going to say much. Just nak share gambar ni. Salah satu kebanggaan hari ni.

Semua prepare sendiri beb!

Here’s the thing. Kitorang and by kitorang I mean my whole fam sejenis tak masak. Paling2 masak sayur, dadar/goreng telur. Lauk luar. It’s been that way for so many years I think since I primary. Ada la sekali dua setahun masak😂 full course. But since the pkp our kitchen has been berasap la orang kata. Tapi hari ni aku especially bangga sebab tak pernah lagi bulan puasa tak depend dekat makanan bazar. Alhamdulillah. We started slowly two days prior. Prepare ingredients for rendang and karipap. Simple tapi sangat bermakna bagi aku. Bless my mom yang tukang masak. Penat gila prepare bahan, I’m honestly starting to get tired of the whole thing but today felt different.

Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa semua! Keep me in your prayers❤️

💔

I just saw a tiktok video of a father and son. The son was showing his dad a joke/prank. The one where you made a phone out of paper and place it on the person’s hand and tell them to repeat the last thing they said (wing; because prior to that you show them a picture of a butterfly and point at the wing and ask them what it is) repeatedly. So when the person goes ‘wing wing wing’ you pick up the phone. It’s silly cute. So the son did that and the dad started laughing heartily.

And I remember my own dad who has a very similar laugh. His laugh is from the heart. It’s one of my favourite sounds in the world. He’s such a happy person, he really is. It takes a lot to bring him down. I miss that laugh. I can hear it again and again.

I didn’t know I was capable of missing my dad this much but here we are. Maybe I’ll call him tomorrow. I’d be too shy to tell him I miss him. Maybe I’ll just text him. Or maybe I’ll call and just ask him what’s going on. Yeah maybe I should just do that.

Lagi

Dua post dalam masa lebih kurang 24 jam? Ini fenomena baru. Hahaha. I’m actually on my phone right now so it’s not very user friendly. I just needed to say one thing:

We need to read more.

I don’t know what came over me today but I was feeling a little bit... down. And I scrolled Twitter and I felt... lagi down. I saw interactions between people and felt slightly annoyed, for lack of better term, at how things just fly over some people’s heads. A total tepuk dahi moment ya feel? And it really isn’t my place to be like ‘oh Gosh tu pon tak paham ke, tu pon tak reti ke’ because I would’ve made the exact same mistake, sometimes your brain just farts. Sometimes you say or do something really stupid despite of it all. But I still stand by my statement la. We really need to read more. I’m talking to you, Malaysians. My fellow Malaysian youth, hello, takde yang baca kot. But that’s what I’m heavily feeling right now la. We need to cut the crap, and pick up a book. Enough with the shit-posting, enough with the trash-talking, enough with everything. Let’s all just read.

And the word is concerned!!! Yes concerned! Not annoyed. I’m concerned! It just came to me lol. See? I’m going to read. But now I’m going to sleep first.

Laughing as you breathe out, easy

It's currently 12.39am on a Sunday. I'm home obviously. But I've been home for almost two weeks.

Future Shafiqah if you're reading this - yes you're supposed to be working but you're quarantined because of COVID frikkin 19 or the ronas as the internet people call it. The Gen Zs of the internet precisely. Most Malaysians call it the covid-19. That's why you're stuck at home. And you're bored but you love it. Your tummy is filled. You have water and electricity. There is nothing to complain about... nothing. Not even the fact that online classes are starting and you're feeling slightly anxious thinking about it especially your poor internet connection (darn u Maxis; also, because of the RMO - that stands for Restriction of Movement Order btw, the tech guy can't come over to fix it) but you can still use your phone. You have running data. Don't - just don't. Don't stress. You're fine. You're totally, dangerously, out-of-this-world fine.

I took a nap today and I terbabas till 8pm that's why I'm still up... not that I sleep very early pun since RMO started but I like to get an early start. Especially since I need to wake up early tomorrow to prepare myself for the online class ting.. no livestream thank God. Just worksheets. Ok don't - don't start. No stress... no stress... ada few worksheets from few weeks ago tak key in lagi I have to do it tomorrow morning but no stress... honestly no stress...

Life has been pretty swell tbh. But I want moreeee. I demand more. I've been looking at pictures of this thing I want because law of attraction you know what they say... but I also believe in Divine Intervention - if I keep showing God how much I want it, and showing myself how much I want it, so much that I can cry, He'll give it to me and I'll find a way to receive that. Doesn't really matter how long it takes. But I hope not too long la. I can get emotional thinking about it. Ok saspen, aku nak pi Switzerland hahahahahaha okay hear me out I actually want to go to the countryside doesn't matter where initially, I just wanted to see green landscape and mountains and all that cool stuff ya feel? And Switzerland is perfect. Actually I think NZ has all that was well but I want to go Switzerland la.

Till then. 2 more weeks of RMO as of now. Can you believe this shiz. I can't. So much to reflect on. So much. May Allah ease allllllll souls. May we receive His Light, Guidance, and Brilliance always.